Author: drachenkreiger

It means she has awakened

and in this groggy state

may refuse to cooperate

to eat her eggs and bacon

Sigh, oh what a fate!

Uncertainty is killing me.

I can not chose or decide.

What holds me back

is that which put me here

in the first place.

All I want is to be capable

of doing what needs to be done

and yet I tremble at the thought

of stepping outside my door.

Things won’t go well

if I just ignore them

and so I deny the facts

and hide

hoping that a miracle happens

knowing that

it will only be granted once I open my eyes

and take that first step.

Outside.

The numbness appears again

This time from a small molecule

of dread

This time

I welcome it

Disappointment will soon happen

so why bother to worry

Do what needs to be done

and hope

but this time

I hope as the numbness spreads

that I do not lose my soul

Again

To merely understand

To choose wisely

and hope the rest of the country

followed suit

To not have to worry about the consequences

of the rash majority

should they decide

to put the least trustworthy

one into power

When one talks

and does not mean what they say.

The truth is in the fine print.

How a person treats another

shows their true character.

Why is it so hard

to see past your own prejudices?

Why is it that even today

all one can do is point out

the comments

that hurt others?

No one is perfect

yet we all want someone

to miraculously save our

country?

town?

us?

What do we even want?

Paycheque to paycheque

a single solitary gift

the unexpected bonus

all of them are gone

spent

and now waiting for the next

small flow of income

to tie us over

until a new job

or the next paycheque

is found

When the anger

held underneath

comes out

when you sleep

and you direct it

at a bad guy

then you wake up

to find

you accidentally

kicked the cat

sleeping with you

in the face

and now she

is mad at you

Once more big eyes look at me

imprinting the need within

that energy needs to be used up

or the threat of chaos will win.

So I look for the toy

knowing the energy I will expend

hoping to release the energy

my furry children need to spend.

Still I love them

and they love me

and nap time will be comforting

as they lay upon me.

Doling out portions

so everyone gets some.

Social time

as we eat and drink our fill.

Grateful for the presence

of those who sit next to us.

Until you realize your cousin

is putting his licked yams

onto your plate

and you already ate one.

Proud can be a word.

Worried is usually the answer.

Sometimes it is delight

though often it is empathy

and resisting the temptation

to turn everything into a teachable moment.

Most times it is merely holding their hand

as they walk beside you

or cuddling them even if they are not sick.

Nowadays it is waiting for the door to open

as they come home

grateful they made it.