Author: drachenkreiger

They don’t understand.

If you try to tell them,

they can not comprehend

the words you are saying.

They will only believe

you are trying to hurt them,

yet

all you want is to not have a confrontation.

You are thankful for everything

they have done for you

but

you are you and you will not change.

Not for them.

Not for anyone.

Not anymore.

That phase of your life is done.

For you,

it is time to move on.

When breathing you need to relax

the esophagus and inhale deeply.

Slowly and calmly exhale

letting your diaphragm to decrease.

Your stomach can move in and out

but your breathing is your focus.

To be relaxed have your lips gently closed,

your jaw released and your tongue on the roof of your mouth.

Then begin by inhaling

and feel your throat vibrate as you exhale.

A one time thing

that happens rarely

for no reason at all.

An indulgence

when needed

to fulfill

a small craving.

A blessing

when a friend

shows you they care.

Sometimes all that is needed

is a listening ear

or a word of encouragement.

Silence or a hug

can be the most precious

treat of them all.

 

To sound grateful

or happy

when with family

even though inside

you really would

rather

be anywhere

but here

The circle continues

Unbroken

Forever winding its way

past all the things seen before

New things will be added

but the results will be the same

Nobody believes the signs

and so we come again to the place

where lives get lost

and people close their eyes

to the horrors they helped create

It is like a train wreck

you can see about to happen.

The tracks are destroyed

and the train has no way to slow down!

Not in time.

We all know what will happen

if the bad guy wins.

Yet, we can not see how to stop them.

Because even deflecting or derailing the train

won’t help.

It is too far down the tracks now.

Vacations are fun

But now they are over

The airplane is waiting

To take me back home

The memories made

The friends old and new

Will tide me over until the next time

I get blue

Socially Anxious

Scared

But fascinated

Watching

Wanting

Unable to ask

Greeting

Or Fleeing

Warring within

Fear

Desperation

Sometimes win

Sometimes I dream

Other times I wander

Often I return

And vaguely do I remember

But most of the time

Heaven is hell bent