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Up and down.

Side to side.

Back and forth.

Not quite a roller coaster ride

But this Spring

Moods fluctuate much more radically.

Constant meowing.

Rubbing against the legs.

Big eyes pleading.

Love nibbles when taking too long.

Absolute delight rolling around in the stuff.

Sleeping off the hit.

Then meowing for more upon wakefulness.

When the fun is all in taking it apart!

Figuring out how it was put together.

Seeing the insides.

Looking at each part individually.

Then eating the resulting mess!

That is why I love making lasagna!

The surreal beauty.

Accomplishment achieved.

Pride in what you do.

Inspired by others.

Leaning into strength.

What do you do

when your child

is a drop out?

Do you encourage them

to be whatever they want to be?

Do you express

your disappointment and anger?

Do you succumb

to the despair of being a failed parent?

Or do you try to continue

to figure out the best things

for both of you?

Musings on life.

Bring it on.

Pasta Riveria.

Sowing wild oats.

Nothing quinoa about this.

If you need anything

Just let me know, OK?

Is there some way I can help you?

Don’t be afraid to call if something comes up!!

I have learned the hard way

that asking for help

is not a sin.

I should not feel guilty

because I have problems.

Yet, so many people

don’t understand,

asking for help

is not a simple thing to do.

Cultural and social norms

put pressure on everyone

to be able to go it alone!

If you can’t do this one thing

then how do you expect to follow through?

Even my mother told me

“If no one else is doing it, then just do it yourself! I did it!”

Except I am not her.

I have problems because of her advice

and now even though I understand why

it still hurts to realize

she will never understand why

I can not just do it!

Whether it is a simple chore

or finding a job

or looking after my kids.

Years of coping strategies

that were more detrimental than helpful

have taken their toll.

Only now,

do I know how to use my voice

and ask for the help

I sometimes need!

Deposit only.

Fans are getting out of control.

The hurricane is increasing in intensity.

You need to go home.

Welcome to your new life!

The weather outside is deceitful.

The heating inside is warm and full.

So you really don’t want to go

Outside in the snow, in the snow.

…

Your cute meows won’t change the weather buddy, sorry.

Is it a good option?

What does it take to implement it?

Can it be afforded right now?

How impactful is this?

Answers to these questions

Are nothing if you are not willing

To take the actions moving forward.

Life can be a very viable option

But only if the quality of the life lived is valued.

The question is who determines what is valuable versus viable?