A cone of shame
dropped over you
as the phone call
to the doctor begins.
A creeping darkness
that seeps into your bones
as you listen
to other peoples accomplishments.
A hole that surrounds
your bed, your mind, your house
as you debate
if you should get up today.
A simple word
that people look at you
and say
“It’s all in your head!”
A hand that grips yours
and won’t let go.
Until another hand touches your shoulder
and they say
“I’m here for you.”
Believing in yourself
can be hard
when all that is heard
or seen
or felt
is the weight
of opinions that devalue you.
No one is able to find their way
unless they find the way
to believe
in themselves
and not believing the lies
we have been told our entire lives.
Especially if they come from yourself.
Seek out those who will build you up.
Learn that fear is not your enemy,
but your companion
who can help you know your strengths
by going forward despite it.
Directing the words to a moral.
A pedestal not needed.
Any medium will do.
Disgust for the others
Whose views are not shared.
Or worse
Realizing you are doing it yourself.
Be truthful.
Be kind.
Admit mistakes.
Give the benefit of the doubt.
Offer help.
And follow through with it.
Find your footing.
And lift others up with you.
Yes, you know you are doing good.
But is it for the recognition?
Or because you know it is a good thing to do.
Do not invalidate your works
By undermining your self worth.
Know who you are.
And do it anyway.
Things got done.
Phone calls made.
Appointments kept.
Friends visited.
The only thing better
would be a completely cleaned house.
For now, the fully changed cat litter
will have to be a major accomplishment.
Next week?
We will see what life gives us.
Consistency!
Normalcy!
Expectations!
Failure!
Oh this weather!
Times are tough.
Very hard to socialize.
Friends are fewer.
Meetings are longer.
Seasons are changing.
Seeing a pal requires safety measures.
And then some.
Picking up the phone
to make that Important call.
The world closes in
and goes dark
as the fear and anxiety
begin to take hold.
Choosing a decision
to postpone the inevitable
makes that decision
even more stressful.
Asking for help
the hardest thing of all.
When is it okay to let pride
stand in your way
and when is it
going to make your life hell?
Nothing seems real anymore
yet nothing can change the way things are.
Still people fight on.
Take a moment
and see the world
once again
through eyes that see you
and all the struggles you endure.
You are still here.
I love you!
Remember the fallen.
Take heed of their acts of valour.
Use the strength they lost to continue the fight.
For us, not them, for they are gone.
We must forgive the sins they endured
In order for us to live.
Forgiveness can be hard
but hatred is deadly.
Mouth sounds
That occasionally burst into songs.
Catch phrases
Used over and over and over and over….
Head tilts
Which pose inquisitiveness.
Rubbing your face
Or scratching or itching unconsciously.
Forming judgements
Without any basic information or facts.
Annoying or sweet
We should do one another a favour.
Learn the quirks
Or change your habits.
