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I need you to play on the x-box.

That way I will feel uncomfortable

asking you to get off.

This will prevent me from playing on it

when I need to get other tasks done.

Will you do this for me?

The one thing,

That one thing

you were supposed to do

but didn’t.

When you look at what

you did do

it is understandable

why

you were not able to do

what you

really

really

wanted to do.

Take the win

and acknowledge

all that you did do.

Otherwise

hating yourself

for not doing that one thing

makes everything else

useless.

I know it needs to get done.

You are on commission.

But, please

It’s the weekend.

Sunday!

Can’t you take one day of rest?

I would just like one day to not hear you

Or your hammer

Or your saw!

Instead, I hope the next door renovations

Get done sooner

So I don’t need to take head ache pills

Every day…..

I get dressed in the morning.

I do not want to have to change my clothes

until it is time for bed.

I find it uncomfortable to switch outfits

unless something got very dirty.

Which means

on the days where the weather fluctuates

I find it difficult

and usually shut down

hiding in bed where no one else can see me.

Plenty

Often

Erasable

Thoughts

Pretty

Often

Empty

Meaning.

Decision made.

Hindsight shows it was right.

Present feels like shit.

Hard to do.

Emotions swell.

Physically the body cures itself.

Mentally my strength gathers.

Boundaries in place.

Lessons learned.

Time to treat myself better.

Anxiety pulsing

Through your body.

Your worst fears

Are realized.

Nothing can be done.

The gun has been loaded.

The target is you.

Your mind wanders.

Thoughts take a turn.

Go down the hole

Of characters

And their traits

That you prefer.

To deny it exists.

I would rather acknowledge

And ignore it.

That way

When it blows up

I can totally have seen it coming.