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A dilemma

of dangerous

proportions

where

a simple

decision

amplifies

the ferocious

hatred

already shown.

Reversal is not enough.

Can the damage ever be truly undone?

We are having longer winters

even the older generations feel it.

The cold lasts as the world stays white

and we dream of the blooming of the flowers.

Change is inevitable the seniors say

yet even they get scared when it happens.

Will there be a world left for our children?

Or will we see the destruction cumulate in our lifetime?

Until then I will dream of the tulips hiding under the snow

and wait for the day the lilacs bloom.

When you miss someone

and want to be able to see them

but the physical limitations prevent you.

A phone call is easy

to hear their voice is soothing.

You don’t want it to end.

So the fight starts

and you can not help yourself

you love them more

even while you bicker.

Hands off.

Wash those digits.

Don’t touch that!

Where’s the soap?

Hand sanitizer to the rescue!

Oh no the wipes are all gone.

No wonder my hands crack when I use them

They are reflection of my tumultuous mind!

The struggle takes a toll.

I know enough to know

I am consciously incompetent.

I can get through most of the tasks

of setting the child up for online learning.

I know enough to almost succeed.

I also know when it is time to give up

and ask for help.

HELP!

They refuse to cooperate.

Pills are not being taken.

Threats were issued by them

with counter threats were stated by me.

Homeschooling your child is exhausting.

So please God, Allah, Yahweh or whatever celestial being is out there

Please give me the strength to not harm this child

and the patience to endure this long and difficult day

Days?

Oh god

days!

Walking is good for you

So is actual exercise

These days I get up from bed

and then lie down on the couch

I feel so drained

and cooped up

and full of sadness

and despair

the only exercise I get

is letting my mind roam

while dreaming of a better future

It started so innocently.

A friend recommending a game.

Yet I can not put my phone down

As I maneuver my figure through the obstacles

and fail or succeed at the tasks given.

The warning on my phone says battery is low.

I ignore it.

It goes dead,

therefore I look up and see it is 2 am.

Sigh, sleep is my only option left

so sleep I will.

Until tomorrow when my phone is charged again!

Means social distancing

to the max!

NO talking to anyone

not even the neighbours.

Unless by phone or shouting

through the walls.

Social media plays

a more and more important part of the day.

So after cleaning the house

again

– maybe-

I can relax and watch other people panic.