The doctor was glad we caught it in time.
I am happy to be able to reduce the pain.
Recovery should go well.
My body told me it was ill
and I am glad I listened.
Forgetting
Trauma’s of the past
Regurgitated.
Sending the shock waves
back inside.
Capture the feelings
but no matter how hard
sometimes we can never forget.
Coping Strategies gone Awry
Energy used no longer available.
Crisis panic to kickstart.
Ambition quashed as reality demands.
Creative endeavors used for escape.
Looks like it is the end of the road.
Tine to heal and time to manage.
Hopefully time will also help and not hinder.
Mixed Bag of Emotions
Rage is encouraged by the disappointment.
Frustration is amplified by the fear.
Compassion seeks to come forward.
But empathy is caught by sympathy and strangled.
All I want is to understand the situation.
Instead I find myself wishing to just turn off.
These emotions hurt and I am tired.
So, so tired.
Once was Enough
Some people learn quickly.
Show them once and they head onward.
Most other people take more time.
Though some experiences are left as only a single time.
Like eating something and finding it not to your liking.
Or doing an activity that leaves you terrified.
Unfortunately some things get repeated
even if you already learned the lessons given.
But the one thing we all get to do once
and not look back upon
is death.
Viable
Is it a good option?
What does it take to implement it?
Can it be afforded right now?
How impactful is this?
Answers to these questions
Are nothing if you are not willing
To take the actions moving forward.
Life can be a very viable option
But only if the quality of the life lived is valued.
The question is who determines what is valuable versus viable?
Not a good partner
Best friends.
Lovers.
Tea talk companions.
Life partners?
Marriage is out of the question.
But the one thing is the trust that we have in each other.
Restart
Error.
Error.
Problem alert.
Functions are not normal.
Standard procedures are not working.
Please unplug and restart.
Except if I unplug myself
I do not think anyone would be able to restart me.
So the aches and pains will stay
As my performance is below par.
Yes Master
Did you like it?
Yes master.
Was it enjoyable for you?
Yes master.
Would you like another lesson?
Yes master.
Please teach me some more.
What do you want to be when you grow up?
The first question asked on the road to adulthood.
Too bad it is never an easy one.
For most people the ideas are endless
and we are all compared to each other.
Can we be the best at what we choose to do?
Or merely unsatisfied,
living day to day
trying to make ends meet?
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