A chess set.
A mini picnic.
Remote control.
Dolls for worrying.
Things that all fir in a pillowcase.
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Christmas lights
As a child
If we had to go to the city
My father as a treat
As the evening came
Would drive slowly through neighbourhoods
So we could look at all the displays
Before going home.
To this day
I find joy
In the simple brilliance
Of a Christmas display lit up.
Re evaluating
Choices I have made.
The skills I have learned.
Reactions from those I care about.
The quality of my life going forward.
My dreams and wishes.
I have had to give up on so many of my dreams
because of this…
because of that…
Life got in the way.
I am not giving up.
My course has changed directions.
Hydration
Water is the key to life.
We all need it to survive.
Funnily enough
even though there is water frozen outside
this winter feels so dry.
Thankfully the humidifier has arrived.
Challenge the Mental
The voice says
horrible, ugly things.
Things heard every day.
All day.
For all my life.
I know what the voice says
is not true.
Yet, still I hear it
and try to push against it.
Maybe one day
I will have a different
kinder voice.
One that I would like to hear.
Even if it is quiet now,
I know it is in there.
When Therapy becomes Real
Pain broken voice.
Tears finally allowed to release.
Heart hurting because of truth.
Doubt, guilt and uncertainty
still trying to keep their footholds.
Seeing them
and realizing
you are still that kid
who just wanted to know
they were loved.
That they were seen.
Trying to find new ways
of accepting what is past is gone.
Someday, someday it will come.
Behind
The times.
When all I am,
is existing.
I have found
those who care for me.
Even when I do not
understand
why.
Transport evolution
Motorized gliders.
Steel ships.
Horseless carriages.
Electronic bikes.
Interactive wheelchairs for the severely disabled.
Now we just need to make everything accessible.
Hope Springs Eternal
I have come to terms
that I will always expect
that things will work out in the end.
Whether I work towards something or not
My problems will resolve themselves
and new ones will appear.
The consequences of my actions
are not always what I want
but I will accept them
despite any peevishness.
DoorMat
Wipe your feet.
Use before entering.
It will be dirty so you can be clean.
So often you can feel like a door mat.
Confrontation is hard for anxious people.
We have been brought up
that everyone else
is more important than we are.
So to remove the door mat
takes courage
as well as setting boundaries
that you never knew
you had the strength for.
Saturn's Premier Poet 