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Pre-Christmas Depression

When you can not do the things you wish you could

Where everything seems so overwhelming

When every little problem gets blown up

to twice its normal size

And all you want to do is curl up into a small ball

huddled under a blanket

and cry until the new year begins

Except the problems won’t go away

and you are forced to fight the sense of loss

until you can breathe again

and hopefully find a crack of light

coming from underneath an edge of the blanket

Also that it is warm

Inevitable

When the changes come sooner

than expected

Or take longer than desired

you begin to panic

and try not to collapse

under the sheer amount of stress

and pain

and guilt

and worry

that envelops your mind

The only thing to help

you through this troublesome time

is the love

Rules Rules Rules

When they are smart enough

to quote your rules back at you.

Then you have to come up

with a quick reason

as to why you are making an exception

for your own deviousness.

But they will follow your actions

not your words.

Better pony up

and get along the side of the rules