To be true

Whimsical vagaries ensue

from the cold state of emotions.

How can I do the things they do

and still be myself?

At what point do I disagree

and become ostracized.

Never in life is easy so hard

when your soul is funneled outward.

Today I lost another friend

or at the very least someone who I thought counted highly.

Have I loved in vain? Would my hopes and dreams bring more than searing pain? A dull ache remains and yet I still dream. My vanity would make me think I can not be part of a team. Yet I know my love was in good faith I offered my soul. Gave what I thought was valued. I did not love in vain. I loved but the love was lost nowhere could it be returned and so I will be sad. A wistful soul hoping that hope does not leave