Physical pain is imminent.
Yet, what destroys more cruelly
is the words that cut you deeper
than you thought physically possible.
Trauma re-trauma
Stress re-enacts the moments.
The memories.
The people involved make the situation recur.
No way to get away.
Fear finds you wherever you go.
Double Standard
A man’s house is his castle.
A woman’s bedroom is his brothel.
Why do we tolerate this?
How to organize your brain
Get the room/desk/tablet organized.
Then next physical items crossed off the imaginary list.
Look at the chaos left behind.
Give up and realize your brain can never be organized like a neurotypical’s can.
Removal
When the smell
exceeds your capacity
you know something needs to be done.
So out with the litter tray
and replace it soon with a fresher, cleaner one.
Real time
Life in a room.
Hollow and alone.
Mind blazing elsewhere.
Away from here.
Body stops.
Mind forgets.
Imagination has become real.
No sex with robots.
Can’t Remember
You may forget me.
I will not remember you.
You will know me.
I will not know you.
You may see me.
I am blind to you.
Habits to break
Old responses.
Ingrained.
Unnoticed.
Tempers quicken.
Fists unclench.
Take a breath.
Listen to what is said before you respond.
And then…
It was a long time ago.
I barely remember.
But the way I felt
I will never forget.
The helplessness.
The despair.
The anger.
The apathy that encompassed my life.
Somehow I broke out
And then my life got better.
But those days of wanting to no longer exist
Still haunt me.
Just that now
They are reminders of what I have to lose.
Theories
Playing with your mind.
What if?
Could it be?
I think I know!!!
Conspiracies darken your thoughts
when theories run out of control.
I have this theory.
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