When illegal things is all that is left
where do you go from there?
I have survived worse
but that does not make it simpler.
The world conspires to bring you only darkness
when do you stop fighting the depression
and give in?
I am a fighter
so I know how hard that is.
Until the inevitable happens
I will not give in!
When you hope things actually work
the way they are supposed to
and they don’t.
The scrambling to pick up the pieces
in order to mitigate the damage
and keep some semblance of routine going.
When your heart is full of worries
and all you can do is be sympathetic
instead of being selfishly cruel.
I wonder where the bottom is
when you think you already hit it?
Eyes see differences
Where the heart sees none.
Colours and abilities
Turn out to be more fun.
We all live complex lives
Sharing this rat race we run.
Living beside each other
Dreaming of tomorrow when our days are done.
Waking up and smiling
For today there is simply some sun.
The future is uncertain.
Unclear and uninspiring.
The decision to change
Has been decided without us.
Desire to run and hide
Only becomes worse looking around.
Life will get better
But not right now.
Right now is the time
To not let the changes
Destroy everything already built.
The first child to leave the nest
is always the hardest.
The most bittersweet
due to conflicting emotions.
Though you still a few remaining
she was the anchor
and so the dynamics
of the household will be changing.
She promised to stay in touch
but you know
all children outgrow their parents
and so you hold back the tears
as you watch her drive away.
Soft
Warm
Sleeping
Eyes
close
and
falling
back
to
sleep
easier….
A tangent appears
and off she goes
Racing for a minute
biased and opinionated
sometimes stopping to breathe
before continuing
and informing everyone
about the ideas in her head
or what the problems
of the world are
Listen, and enjoy
because they are delightful to hear
and you will miss them
when she is gone
Impatience demands it to be read now!
The unmistakable desire to know,
curiousity gains the upper hand.
So what happens when the next chapter
is unavailable!
Or even worse the next book in the sequel!
Patience is forced upon those who need to know
and slowly their brains will let go of the overwhelming
desire to know.
Until it comes out
and then the cycle starts over again!
When you are dancing
to the rhythms in your mind.
There is no longer an equal state
of being
or the awareness of anything else.
Who is to say the music heard
by only yourself
is unimportant
when that is what drives you to do your best.
Greatness awaits
and the beats keep you company.
Regrets are inevitable
When you dwell
On wishes
And the things
You lost out on.
Time is limited
Because that is what we create.
If we all learned to just relax
And enjoy the weather
Cold and blustery
Or hot and sweaty
We would find enough time.
But we never do.
Saturn's Premier Poet 