I look in the mirror
and utter such nonsense to myself
seeking to play down my embarrassment.
Meanwhile the words
continue to loop
and I begin to believe they are truth.
Fearing the worst
I conjecture how stupid I am
and all the horrible things I did.
Not just today
but all days
and even ones I have not gone through yet.
I can not keep telling myself
that I am ugly
or stupid
or fat
or a waste of space
or not worthy to exist.
These thoughts must stop
or I will continue down this road further
and further
until
one day
I will only regret
everything
I ever did.