Author: drachenkreiger

I am a gamer

and I like my games.

So much so

that I forget to eat

or sleep

or move from my chair

and so the days go by

with out me knowing

who is out there

or why.

Acknowledging your ancestors

Whoever they might be

Be proud of who you are today.

Be ashamed of their actions

that caused harm to others

but love the life they lived

for in loving others

they passed it forward to you.

The world is bigger than all of us

but we still live every day

for the ones coming after us!

They were playing so nicely

Taking turns

having fun chasing the string

He was cuddly and cute

and she was jealous.

Within a snap

she turned into crazy mode

and chased him all around the house

breaking a few dishes

as they swept past the table.

Now he is relegated back to the basement

while she guards the rest from his intrusion.

Upon first waking up

The brain is foggy

and slow to distinguish

what is meant by things in front of it.

Coffee or other wake up means

sometimes help.

Then somedays

no matter what

you look at the words

in front of you

and simply

can not

comprehend

their meanings.

Normally I am okay

with not seeing people

for days at a time

but even I need to talk

to someone

anyone

who sees me

as a human being

and not another number

or case subject

I have had so many.

I want to do this!

but I can’t.

I don’t have the skills.

I want to try this!

but I am scared!

I want to be this!

but I’m old now and no longer have the energy to fight!

I wonder what dream will die tomorrow.

We all sit in different rooms

Each on our own electronic device.

Supper may be made

or we all fend for ourselves.

Eventually I call for bedtime

and if I’m lucky

there is minimal fuss.

Otherwise my evening takes longer than I would like!

The truth is I still do stupid things

like stay up very late playing games.

I still eat things I know I should not.

I just really like chips.

I sit down and do not walk as much as I should

but then to justify it all

I say

I’m young at heart

and then laugh at myself for my absurdities.

 

The under lying feeling of dread.

Uncertainty.

The inability to be completely calm.

The current times are full of injustices.

People are told lies

and then they believe them.

Hate is everywhere

and love seems impossible.

Protecting loved ones is crucial

yet somehow society is failing.

Both them and us!

How are we to continue on in such a manner as this?

He’s coloured to look like a loaf of bread.

He’s a big softie and loves to cuddle.

He also loves the freedom of outside.

He is still scared of her

thinking she will attack him.

He is getting bolder and comes up from the basement more often.

I love my cats and right now

with him sleeping on me

I love him all the more!