I have tried
to get the showers
done every two days.
I have tried
to show how mouths
should be closed when chewing.
I have tried
to enforce the cleanliness
of the areas occupied by all.
I have tried
to use guilt to show
that wiping the bum with towels is gross.
And so
I have tried
to instill good manners
on this child who refuses to listen.
The one who just
picked up a hotdog
from the floor
and ate it.
Sigh,
all the while
knowing I was watching.
Staring blankly at the screen
Little sleep
yet still awake
Head hurting from last nights adventures
so how do we walk
up and down stairs
from the moment eyes open
and then collapse into a chair
to close the lids
from the bright bright sun
as morning coffee percolates
with forbidden hope
The weather turns
at the drop of a hat.
Sunny and windy
Warm and then clouds.
Blustery conditions
indicate indoors might be best.
As you watch the droplets
in your imagination
come to life outside.
Living in caves
Not seeing the sun.
Fearing the daylight
and what it has become.
Trying to breathe
and ending up alone.
Running from yourself
screaming at your bones.
Get up high in the mountain
and watch the moon.
For miles around
you can hear the loons.
Nobody to hear you scream your pain
As you watch the world go by again and again.
When the bad guy is you
and you can not stop yourself
How do you live with the consequences
of your actions?
Can you forgive yourself?
Does repentance seem unattainable?
Or do you simply go on
and continue to harm others
since you can not care
about anyone
but yourself anymore?
Complaining all the time,
Complaining all the time.
I feel so connected
and yet I’m all alone.
So Complaining all the time,
Complaining all the time.
Time to get things done
and yet its a falling space out zone.
Complaining all the time,
Complaining all the time.
Prevent the sickness, get ahead.
Wait, what did you just moan?
It is amazing how much
the smell of garbage not taken out
can fill the air!
Gone for a day and the child
has not done the one chore
so rotten leftovers overpower the nose.
Windows would be opened
if not for the rain
though the smell is bad enough
that might just be the only option left.
Where’d I put the Air Freshener?
Tomorrow may never come.
Times are harsh
and people unforgiving.
No one wants to be shown their faults
and yet we all have them.
How do we survive
not knowing what might happen?
For some it is faith,
for others hope
and for some
it is hopelessness and acceptance.
He would say all the time
I promise We’ll do it tomorrow
or next week
or next month.
The children learned
promises were not promises
and were easily broken.
So I did the only thing I could
I would tell them
I can not promise you
but I will try.
If I made a promise
I fulfilled it.
That is why I am single
and he only sees the children
occasionally.
Worries races through me
Waking up I sneezed
My nose continues to run
and I refuse to get out of bed.
I’m sick and I don’t know with what?
In these days of plague
I could have anything!
So I will shut myself off
from EVERYONE!
(Take that work!)
and hope the children can figure out food for themselves.
Oh wait,
I need to use the bathroom!
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