My Bum is Dumb and other phrases that are not True

I look in the mirror

and utter such nonsense to myself

seeking to play down my embarrassment.

Meanwhile the words

continue to loop

and I begin to believe they are truth.

Fearing the worst

I conjecture how stupid I am

and all the horrible things I did.

Not just today

but all days

and even ones I have not gone through yet.

I can not keep telling myself

that I am ugly

or stupid

or fat

or a waste of space

or not worthy to exist.

These thoughts must stop

or I will continue down this road further

and further

until

one day

I will only regret

everything

I ever did.