The motivation is there.
I really want to do this.
My routine is holding me back.
How can I become a better person
when all I want to do is avoid this problem?
My life is forever filled with fear.
Failure and pain have hurt me
more than I would like to admit.
There are still moments of happiness and peace
but too many days are filled with anxiety and resistance.
When my job is my life I can not enjoy my life.
Saturn's Premier Poet 