Poetry

To all of you who have

closed your minds,

closed your hearts,

closed your opinions,

thank you for teaching me

that I do not have to argue with you.

That discussions are useless.

Nothing I say will change your mind

and all it will do

is frustrate me.

When you wing it

Hoping for the best.

Regret not having put in the time

To fully develop the skills needed.

Try to remember

Practice is not wasted!

Messy as it is

practicing is not

a waste of time,

effort or materials.

Sometimes that is all it is.

Then when you try again

you see the practice has helped.

When the tools you brought

are not up to snuff.

Making do with them is hard.

Allowing yourself to see the end result

in a positive light

is harder than you think.

Still, sometimes

all you can do

is work with what you got.

There is a weight to the images.

The emotions roil around intense.

I feel like they could turn into nightmares.

When I wake I realize

they have exemplified my stress.

This is why I do not wake refreshed.

I am not a lizard

but I find it harder to motivate myself

or be active on colder days.

The willingness to shower

is in proportion to room tempurature.

Social distancing made this habit worse.

Now I have to force myself to do basic hygiene

when I do not have a social reason to do so.

That may be why

I like it when my friends visit regularly.

Sucks sometimes.

Everything happens all at once

Or there is an interminable amount of waiting.

You can be joyful from the circumstances

or be thrown into the depths of despair.

Today is one of those days.

Come and see what we have to offer.

You do not want to pass this up!

We have amazing deals.

Limited time only!

Hurry before the sale ends!

The sale ended….

I have the little stool for my feet.

The tissue box is well within reach.

Yet it still takes me 20 minutes to release.

By that time, my legs have fallen asleep.

A blazing hot shower.

A cold bathroom.

Even the mat is cold.

My body is instantly shivering.

I rush to dry off

and get dressed

so I can be warm again.

This is why I do not like winter.