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It was weighing you down.

You did not even know it.

It was not until you released it

That you realized the extent.

So watch it swirl away

As you press the handle in relief.

There is no wisdom wiser

Than a fool who knows he is right.

The devil may tempt us

But God gave us Country Music.

Observant.

Hard-working.

Fast learner.

Empathetic.

Clever.

Resilient.

Stronger than you think.

I only find it difficult to actually believe in this myself.

It adds up over time.

Most of us are not patient enough to wait.

We all want it now!

I am trying to be patient

because I do not feel like I have any real choice.

At least not right now.

The fever spikes.

Shivers intensify.

Blankets thrown off

Only to be grabbed again.

How many times

Does this temperature yo-yo mean to continue?

Another rise begins.

Despite feeling the freezing atmosphere

It is obvious the fever still holds on.

The ballista is wheeled out of the castle.

It takes down only a few of the giants.

When the opposing army

Breaks your front line

You are horrified to see

The giant reach down and pick up your ballista.

As it turns it around and uses it like a crossbow

You know even if you live

Your castle and it’s people are gone.

Too bad this is not just a fantasy story.

Sometimes, you do not work right.

Your leg goes numb

and stops supporting you.

Hands tingle and refuse to wake up.

Then your brain clots and you find yourself

only half the person

you used to be.

But then I got sick.

So fuck the world

I’m going back to bed.

The fever is there.

Low and hot.

Constantly making me irritated.

But like all moms

stopping is not an option.

You work through

and see if you can get better before the next illness hits.

Reminds me of my autism mask, honestly.

Creeping along.

Ants forage.

Caterpillars munch.

The garden blooms.

Flowers spread.

The bees enjoy.

Spring is coming.