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Chores done.

Tired, exhausted.

Phone call with good news.

Somehow energy has returned.

Life is funny some times.

I share my story.

Painful.

It hurts.

I cannot undo the mistakes I made.

Perhaps you will do better than me.

Getting the date wrong.

Showing up.

Handing in the paintings.

Not supposed to until a month from now.

Well, at least I was early.

Running out of time.

Too many things to do.

Not enough sleep.

Powering through the tasks

would be easy

if I was neurotypical.

Instead I will try to get

as many done as I can.

Hopefully that will be three out of the seven needed.

A queen sized blanket

Draped over a twin bed.

The blanket trails on the floor.

The bonus is the cocoon

You can wrap yourself in

When it gets cold.

The eye of the beholder

Is all anybody can claim.

What one likes

Another dislikes.

One loves

While another hates.

The discrepancy comes

When you are asked to put a price on it.

Energy is low.

Inspiration is lacking.

Pushing through means

not getting any self care.

Yet, all I hear from people

is just do it!

No one else will.

Are you just lazy?

Things get done my way.

I just don’t expect people to understand anymore.

Acting in faith

trying to do good.

Learning the legalities

of the actions taken.

Bitterness can take root.

Unlearning bad habits takes time.

Martyrdom is not for me.

I will protest though.

I look out the window

As the fluffy snowflakes fall.

I glance down at my cat

Curled up on my lap,

Happy and contented.

My appointment is still half an hour away.

I look at the deep drifts of snow.

I am thankful that this appointment

Can be done with a phone call,

So I don’t have to trudge through the cold weather.

I may have spelt it wrong

But the taste is a cherished childhood memory.

My father coming home

With a block of crumbly paste.

I am reminded of it

When our next door neighbours

Gift us dates filled with a paste

That was delicious and familiar.

I like the fact that exchanging food

Is a good tradition to have inherited.

I will always respect others

And I’m glad to learn about their ways.

Thank you father

For encouraging me to try new things.