Author: drachenkreiger

In the dark

Waiting for the power to turn back on

I listen to him grumble.

Reassured by his breathing

I calmly wait for him to get the flashlight

and laugh

as he stumbles around blindly.

No work.

Fun things only.

Movies and popcorn.

Drinks on a friend’s balcony.

Playing video games constantly.

Until Sunday night

and the specter of Monday looms large.

Head throbs.

Pain may diminish.

Sometimes it intensifies.

No matter what is done.

It always comes back.

I welcome the rain.

It cools me down.

The temperatures are high.

Wildfires darken the skies.

With the rain

I can breathe.

With the rain

I might have more energy.

No, I am not a plant.

Working on the computer.

On an important phone call.

In the middle of a video game

or even a board game.

Worst but sometimes the best one

is when I am trapped in the bathroom

doing my business

and she comes in

demanding I pay attention to her.

Yes, my cat can open doors.

I need you to play on the x-box.

That way I will feel uncomfortable

asking you to get off.

This will prevent me from playing on it

when I need to get other tasks done.

Will you do this for me?

The one thing,

That one thing

you were supposed to do

but didn’t.

When you look at what

you did do

it is understandable

why

you were not able to do

what you

really

really

wanted to do.

Take the win

and acknowledge

all that you did do.

Otherwise

hating yourself

for not doing that one thing

makes everything else

useless.

I know it needs to get done.

You are on commission.

But, please

It’s the weekend.

Sunday!

Can’t you take one day of rest?

I would just like one day to not hear you

Or your hammer

Or your saw!

Instead, I hope the next door renovations

Get done sooner

So I don’t need to take head ache pills

Every day…..

I get dressed in the morning.

I do not want to have to change my clothes

until it is time for bed.

I find it uncomfortable to switch outfits

unless something got very dirty.

Which means

on the days where the weather fluctuates

I find it difficult

and usually shut down

hiding in bed where no one else can see me.