Author: drachenkreiger

Distracted.

Focus gone.

Tiredness.

Where are my thoughts?

Going,

Going,

Gone!

Wait?

What was that?

I like his lips.

They feel so good

against mine.

He knows when I like it hard

or when to go soft.

He is a very good kisser.

The symptoms are not always noticed

A sniffle here

An itchy throat

Muscles sore

Until combined

all you can do is lie down and rest.

I am in debt.

It grows slowly

Each month

larger and uneasy.

I am not defeated.

I must change my tactics.

Use the knowledge

I have acquired

and manage my money.

I have not won

but neither have I lost!

I care about what other people think.

I have learned it matters to me.

I can not control what is inside them

and yet I care what they think of me.

And it is always about me!

Am I selfish?

or am I scared?

I don’t know

but worrying about it sucks!

I talk too much.

I talk too fast.

I say things

without knowing how they affect others.

I only realize afterwards

when the hurt appears on their faces.

I want to be friends.

I want to be friendly

and yet I am thrown into saying I’m sorry.

My lack of Understanding

does not mean a lack of Empathy.

It merely means my empathy

may be misplaced.

I do not know your point of view.

But I am trying

and even if I fail

I am still learning

and hope to be a better person.

I am not a crusader.

So I failed.

I care

and so I tried.

I had to learn

the hard way.

No one will listen

if they have already made up their mind!

I am not here to be liked.

I came here to do the necessary.

Even if people do not like what I have to say.

So am I doing what I came here to do?

I write the things of my Heart,

my Thoughts,

my Soul,

my Opinions

and I am doing Alright!

Slowly they add up.

It is easy to get addicted.

So easy to let the thought

Oh it is only a dollar

sway your decision.

Then you add them up.

Higher and higher the total becomes.

These micro aggressions

turn into Micro Transgressions!