It was a long time ago.
I barely remember.
But the way I felt
I will never forget.
The helplessness.
The despair.
The anger.
The apathy that encompassed my life.
Somehow I broke out
And then my life got better.
But those days of wanting to no longer exist
Still haunt me.
Just that now
They are reminders of what I have to lose.
Saturn's Premier Poet 