I wish I didn’t care

I was brought up to not be selfish.

Be grateful for any gifts given to you.

If you wanted something

you never asked for it.

You needed to buy it yourself.

Now, years later I am learning about self care

and how much of my childhood inhibited it.

I could not look after myself

because it would be selfish of me

and so I burned out

and had nothing left for others.

I wish I could change time

and yet I know

the only time I can change is now.

Selfish I will be when I need recharging.

Selfish I will be when I feel lost and alone.

Selfish I will be because I know

I am worth it!

No one can call me selfish when I take care of myself before them!