What can I do versus what should I do

There are many things I can do.

I can hold down a job.

I have raised three kids.

I knew when to leave a bad marriage.

I can survive.

Yet doubt tells me

I should be working on getting a new job.

I will never be a good enough parent.

I let myself fail my marriage.

I survived but I am not thriving.

So, why this duality of mind?

I know I am capable yet I still tell myself I am useless.

My heart wants love but my mind tells me I do not deserve it.

Even if it is self love.