I’m not in love with myself

I have always struggled

with low self esteem.

I was never pretty enough.

I was too fat.

Or not smart enough.

Growing up in a small town

only made things worse.

My peers did not like me.

My only friends tolerated me.

Then I found someone who liked me.

And they were my friend

despite my oddities.

After years of being shunned

I found this person wanted to hang out with me.

Years have gone by since then.

I still struggle.

I still get severely depressed.

I know people care about me.

Yet, I am still amazed

that they could actually like someone like me.