Fear of the Future

Uncertainty is killing me.

I can not chose or decide.

What holds me back

is that which put me here

in the first place.

All I want is to be capable

of doing what needs to be done

and yet I tremble at the thought

of stepping outside my door.

Things won’t go well

if I just ignore them

and so I deny the facts

and hide

hoping that a miracle happens

knowing that

it will only be granted once I open my eyes

and take that first step.

Outside.